People always ask me why i write! Like what do i get out of it?
I'll tell you why i write. I write because I can say what i want or need to say without getting flustered, emotional or embarrassed & I love being able to re-read my own writing. Also for those of you who know me, you know how much public speaking scares the shit out of me!
I would absolutely LOVE to be able to host information evenings, talk about all my products, do make up tutorials in front of a group of people, but it makes me SO nervous, like brings tears to my eyes thinking about speaking in front of people. Don't get me wrong - in front of my friends I'm the class clown, but when the heat is directly on me, it's not great! A quick story about my last experience with public speaking - I have great friends but this was a dick move! We had our Senior sports prize giving evening (big deal, right!) I was our netball captain & had written my speech (which i was seriously dreading so much) I had a couple of glasses of bubbles & had built my confidence up! I went to re-read my speech before prize giving started & i couldn't find it ANYWHERE! I panicked & told the girls (with tears in my eyes) that i couldn't do it & I would just get the president of the rugby club to speak! Turns out the girls had hidden it. I sulked so bad & made my girlfriend get up & speak instead. I haven't even considered doing in since! I'd rather not play netball (haha!).
I write because I feel like a lot of people can relate to my blogs. I also like to make people laugh & i like to keep it real. I want people to start having a positive outlook on life. It's a pretty neat life we have & although shit does happen, sometimes over & over again & it's hard to remind yourself what's good, you have to remember to get up & keep chugging along. Talk about your shitty moments & get it off your chest & carry on. Writing can help with this. If I need to, I write letters to get whatever it is i need to get out. I make notes on my phone, I have lists. It also stops me from saying dumb shit that I know i'll regret later!